How could i have thought that you could possibly feel something for me. How could i have thought that anyone could have had any strong feelings for me. Your miles away, thats completely impossible. You don’t care, you don’t have any feelings for me. Its all just meaningless words. How can you just throw away your words like that and not mean it. Out of every guy out there i didnt think you were like that. I keep playing that song you showed me called goodnight moon by go radio. i also just watched the video. in a way it describes us completely but its just the fairytale part. why can’t it just come true. iv been going through this crazy thing the past week trying to figure out what to do and how to change things in my life and i thought that this visit could have been something special could have changed my life in a good way. I thought that i wouldn’t keep on wondering “what if” but i would finally understand all these insane feelings I’m feeling. I guess it was just too good to be true… like always. I just wanna forget you for now. Why can’t i ?
The truth is, i really have no idea who i am or where I'm going, but i know one day ill figure that out. I walk by faith and not by sight while creating a book that i will later go back to and relive my memories.